Almost. There.

Spring Break is so close! PLEASE come more quickly!
TWO MORE DAYS! (:

Thursday -- Wake up early, kidnap Louisa, take her to Starbucks for her birthday! It's a block day on Thursday, the worst. Period 1: Geometry, Period 3: Biology, Period 5: Spanish. This is the hump that I have to get over to feel the week coming to a close.
Friday -- Louisa and Andy's Birthday Party! I love birthday parties! They're so joyous. :D

I need to get out more often. I need to start up my exercising and sports again. I miss tennis and my sock tans.

3 more months until summer? YES!
This means the beach, the sun, the pool, the no-school. Unbelievably excited.


I'm coming back baby!

SUCCESS.

It was a great night.
I had tons and tons of fun.
Though, I did get in trouble cause of the time that I got home, but it was worth it!
I'm stoked for Blackout! (:

I CAN GO

YESYESYESYESYES
this deserves its own post.

Mothers.

Epiphany: I'm a horrible daughter:
I'm so bad to my mother. I feel bad. I need to appreciate her more, and I want to be a better, more loving daughter. I'm gonna change; I promised myself. I feel terrible when I hear her talking on the phone with my dad( in Vietnam), and she's talking about how hard of a time she's having at home, financially and whatnot. My heart breaks for her. I hate having to cause her more pain by arguing with her and disrespecting her. She never talks to me about how hard of a life she's having, and I respect her even more for it. She's an amazing mother and friend!

"The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness." ~Honoré de Balzac

Acceptance!

I walked into history like any other day. We talked about historical stuff.
Then we as we got ready to take notes, Mr. Yoder pulled down the projector-board thing, and here it was:


<3

Now all that's left to do is make my mom let me go.

BACKWARDS?

I asked him to Backwards today. I got a Swedish Fish bag and put a pink bow on it. Then I put that candy bag into a pink bag, and I flled the bag with rainbow stuffing-paper stuff. FLOR wrote a card for me that said: Michael Bishop "The Greatest Catch": Out of all the fish in the sea, will you be the one to go to Backwards with me?
Cliche, I know. I liked it though.
I gave it to his football teacher to present to him during his football period.
Hopefully, it was a success.
And hopefully, I'm allowed to go.

*Knock on wood*

Is that really necessary?

She finds joy in my misery. I feel extreme dislike towards her right now. EXTREME dislike. She loves it when I'm sulking and crying. It's disturbing.

Stupid mothers. UGH.

Help the Homeless.

Unfortunately, I didn't get to go to church today, but instead, I did my fair share of community service; we picked up trash and fed the homeless. We packed peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, cookies/chips, and a juice box. Then, we went around Pasadena and handed these lunches out. It was such an awesome feeling. They looked me right in the eyes and said, "God Bless You" and it made me feel all warm and kind. There was even a man who said that he hadn't eaten for the past 2 days. I didn't know that the poverty was that strong, especially in Pasadena.
I'd do it every day if I had the time and money.
It makes me sad:

Profiled

The I-Search is this 6-8 page, free-topic research paper.
My I-Search Topic: Police/Racial Profiling.
Racial Profiling: the act of taking characteristics of a population and applying them to an individual.

There's no question as to whether it exists or not. It's a matter of whether it's acceptable and accurate enough to be used. That's what I'm writing on: What is police profiling and how accurate is it?

My opinion BEFORE I had started researching was that it shouldn't be a part of our society. That it was wrong and it should be eliminated. But I started doing my notes and I read many stories in which police officers used their judgement to pull over suspicious individuals, and those individuals were carrying bombs and whatnot. I guess that it paid off to profile them in that situation. Many times, though, police pull over people just for "driving while black". Eh, I don't know what opinion I'm going to take on my paper. I'm in the middle.

Imprisoned.

I baked today. I made blueberry muffins and they were a great success! I was going to take a picture of them, but I'm not really sure where my camera went.

I'm grounded for not being smart about my time management. I guess it's reasonable. I'll just have to step my "game" up by thursday night, so I'm released from this prison by friday.

I'm learning to sew, but it's really difficult. I want to make something of my own, but I don't think it's going to be possible.

I need to read more because I don't read enough. Actually, I don't read at all. Since I'm not going to procrastinate anymore, I will have time to read at least 45 minutes every night. Hopefully I'll score higher on the SAT due to my reading skills that I'm going to develop.

My passion for school is diminishing. I used to want to get straight A's, and nothing else, but now, I'm studying less and not caring as much for school. What's happening?

I applied to Glendale Piano Competition 2010. Grand prize out of the 9th and 10th graders is $1000. That's my goal. I want to win, not only for the money but for my mother. I want to show her that she didn't make a mistake in starting me in piano. Auditions are in April, so pray for me?

I found some cute, old pictures:

Overwhelmed.

Too much dangin' homework. Can't concentrate. I'm overwhelmed, and I don't know where to start.

ARGH. that's me:

Procrastination

I suffer from it a lot. I have to set myself straight. I created a schedule for myself that involves me finishing homework by 9:30. It even has an hour for exercising, since I need to get myself back into shape. Let's see if I can follow this schedule and be successful.
No computer, no phone, no music UNTIL I finish all necessary homework. I CAN DO IT.

Who Knew...

That ONE comment can make or break you.
I've experienced both today... I guess the nice oneS balanced the mean ONE out.
The mean things always stick with me, and it's hard for me to forget them.
Ah well, life's unfair.

It definitely feels like a Wednesday or a Thursday, but it's not.
It's a Monday.
Another FULL week ahead. YAY.

Vegetarianism

I'm a vegetarian. I don't eat any meat, besides fish, and even with fish, I only eat the small kinds. Not dolphins or sharks or anything like that. I'm thinking of not eating tuna because of all those problems with mercury poisoning. Heh.

I love it Linda!

Hit Pause

Daylight Savings is amazing. It's 5:30 and it's still sunny outside! What an amazing concept of trying to save energy.
Just enjoy the sun and the air outside. Open the curtains and windows and let the outside air in.

On my Sunday quest, I went to the flea market. It was quite the trip. I love the atmosphere of the place, and I love the items I find there. It kind of reminds me of Venice, but not as sketchy...

PROMISE

I promised myself that I'd write something once a day, and I'm going to stick to that promise, but I feel like it's getting to be more of a chore than something I enjoy doing.

On another note, I've started to get ready for backwards. I'm excited: March 27th! Went shopping today for my dress which was semi-successful, and still need shoes.

Tomorrow's my journey to a flea market, super stoked for that!

Friday nights..

They're amazing. The feeling of having to do no homework is the best!
And plus, no dooming pressure of sleeping early and waking up late. It's such a relaxing day. TGIF right?

Oh gee, today was eventful.
School: wasn't bad at all, went by pretty quickly (helps if you have something/someone to daydream about (; HAHAH)
Baseball game: Stayed for 20 minutes. Pretty boring. I'm not that into baseball
Starbucks: Always good. Never a fail.
Kelsey's: Fun. "Girl Bonding Time". Outfit changes. Nails. Farts. Poops. Laughs.
Louisa's: Highlight of my day. Father was great. Chatroulette was a fail.

Another Friday passed, now onto my Saturday adventure... hope it's something fun!

Cellular Device

My Verizon LG 8500, Chocolate, phone broke. I'm surprised it even lasted this long. My touch-screen-navigator-pad thing broke, which means that I still receive texts, but I can't read them. Oh, the frustration. I loathe my phone.

Bye Bye Birdie

Pops left today. He'll be back in 3 months.

Be Safe, Be Healthy, and I LOVE YOU

Ups & Downs

Stuff that makes me sad: unnecessary cruelty to animals and humans, the fact that I talk behind people's back, the concept of procrastination, business trips, that i have a low passion for getting good grades, that i never try my hardest for anything anymore, that piano isn't my life anymore, racial segregation, when i can't get a riff down on guitar, my impatience, my judgmental temperament, my height, holes, AIDS



Stuff that makes me happy: Food, naps, looking at old pictures, jason mraz, finishing homework early, sitting, listening to music that reminds me of old events, when people text me and just say "hi", when people say that they thought of me during the day, when i look at my parents hugging, homemade gifts, going to the flea market with my dad, colorful drawings, random hugs, the feeling of safety when i sleep with my mom, my grandma, passing notes during class, inside jokes, dancing, pretending to be able to sing, accomplishing something that I've been working on for a while, music boxes, that i live in La Canada, my caricatures, community service, the fact that i have more things that make me happy than sad

Dazed and Confused

I have these episodes once in a while where I just sit and listen to depressing music, and I sulk. There's never a particular reason for these; it just happens.

I'm obsessed:

Effected

High school is life-changing, and it sucks. I'm changing too much, and so are my friends. I hate it.




The closer you get to one person, the farther away you get from another.
I miss you guys!